Letting It Go and Letting It In

Last time I wrote I was going through the depths of it. Questioning everything. Myself, my decisions, my path in life, my values and the things I hold dear, it was TERRIBLE. Since then I have prayed. I have sought council from my dearest, (husband, friends, family.) Slowly, the doubts fear and anguish started lifting away... Then I was gifted with this past weekend.

This past weekend, I went to Santa Barbara for a friend's wedding.The experience was a gift to me from God. It seemed as though everywhere I turned I was delivered either a sign of the path I am on or a reminder/encouragement for where I am going. Here is what I mean...

1. Hubby took forever to RSVP (it was his friend getting married) and I didn't think we were going to go but then not only did he pull the trigger but he had the idea for us to rent a room and enjoy the weekend.

2.Although we had been to S.B many times, it just so happened our usual Days Inn was not available leaving us to enjoy a new piece of town we were not familiar with. :)

3. This new Days Inn was nicer and larger than where we normally stay.

4. It "just so happened" that there was a lovely market like a privately owned smaller Trader Joe's filled with inexpensive healthy foods & drink right across the street. :D

Then we got to the wedding....

1. We arrived late along with another couple that "just so happened" to be friends of ours which was an unexpected delight.

2. After a short and gorgeous ceremony, we walked over to where the reception was to be held where we were greeted with a wonderfully talented group of musicians playing Brazilian music. The very next song they played upon our entering? My favorite, "Agua de Beber". :D

3. As we entered the main area and found our table, it just so happened a new band was playing another one of my favorite songs that has been very poignant for me these days "If I Ever Lose My Faith In You" by Sting. We were also seated with the greatest company. A motivational speaker and his wife, our friends that I referenced earlier, and a powerful man in TV who is the spitting image of President Barack Obama. :)

4. As the night progressed, there was love filled speeches, praise, dancing, delicious foods, drinks, wonderful music, and FUN. It had been a long time since I'd had some fun.

There were other gifts blessings miracles,

5. Our friends fiancee had come to me later in the evening and said to me, "as an Artist, you can't give up. You must keep going. It may seem tough but everyone who is mainstream today started out not being well known. We each have gifts and you have to share yours with the world." She had no reason to tell me this. I had never met her before and did not mention anywhere in my conversation with her what I had been feeling in my heart the days before this outing. How on earth could she have known that I was contemplating quitting? *Gift

6. When we pulled up to this beautiful venue I found out it was valet parking only much to my dismay. I like to have quick access to my car and wasn't sure if I would need my coat later on. One thing I DID notice however was that in the front of the venue there were nothing but luxury cars and I made a comment to my husband about how THAT is the company I love to be in. ;) It just so happened as we left the wedding after a delicious stroll in the full moon light I came to find my car amidst all it's luxurious friends. :D

Can you believe that even on the way home there was very limited traffic and I had cars just move out of my way on more than three occasions? If you live or are aware of Los Angeles 101 traffic you will understand what a true miracle this is indeed. :D

I'm here to tell you that I believe in miracles and I think they happen every day. I believe that gifts and blessings swirl all around and are available to all of us. The days before this outing I felt broken, heavy, and lost. These things and feelings happen. But if we look around us and believe. All the things that make us happy and the people that make us feel strong are there too and they're just waiting to be given a chance to lift us up.

"There are only two ways to live your life. 

One is as though nothing is a miracle. 

The other is as though everything is a miracle." 

- Albert Einstein

Wishing you an abundance of miracles. Love to you,
Tee

The Extraordinary & Ordinary Intertwined

This weekend I was in and out of consciousness. My cold had me relegated to my home (mostly my bed.) Not by force (thank goodness) it was my choice. What can I say?! I tend to highly value maximum health. Amidst the sea of dreams, I experienced many firsts:

*I put my needs first & turned down a family invitation because it didn't feel right.

*I created the most luxurious spa experience in my bathroom complete with candles, lavender bath salts, extremely hot water, & a private showing of Eat Pray Love. Thanks to Netflix & my MacBook.

*I made the decision to, & began learning Italian.

*I claimed my space without guilt once & for all & now refuse to let my cats sleep with me in my bedroom anymore.

*I let my faith guide me through yet another extremely big change in my life. A person I love very much and have dedicated a good portion of my life to is no longer in my regular picture. Their departure from my every day has been surreal yet serves as another sign of what I "knew" the moment the clock marked 12am on New Year's Day 2011. I'm stepping into a whole new life.

The more I allow it the more I see the beauty of the extraordinary & the ordinary intertwined. It is beautiful, succinct, delicious. It is gorgeously intimate. I feel I am becoming a better person. This excites me. I've never experienced peace like this before, faith like this before, it is amazing.

I guess you could say cold and all, my weekend was great. Somehow 85% of the time spent in my room connected me even more to myself, the world, and you. Extraordinary & ordinary, indeed.

Today I Step In To My Newest Title, Philanthropist.

It's sunny outside, the weather is warm, I am energized, refreshed, grateful, excited. This is after over a week of gloom and rain, metaphorically speaking it couldn't be more perfect. This week has brought about a massive amount of change. Consolidated. In your face. The kind of change that even someone like me who loves change, has to pep talk her way through it. Truthfully speaking, like all extremely hard things in my life, God got me through. I've experienced extreme lows and highs. Outpouring of support from fans, friends, and family. I will never be the same.

Amidst this process I have been enlightened to dreams I didn't know I had, to possibilities I hadn't seen before. To things that are now my new life's path. I am alive.

The first section of my life was about survival. The second section about me finding and expressing myself through the arts and my talents. This new phase is about the world.

Listen, I'm not out of the woods yet. I've had major unexpected financial things come up, (a move, parking tickets, ding in my windshield, medical & vet expenses, people I trusted and thought were on my team try to take advantage of me) some of these are still pending.. Sometimes I get scared and it hurts but I've also been extremely blessed. To be honest the only reason I am mentioning this to begin with is because I want you to know I'm a real person. A human being, making my way through this world, trying to be the best I can. Any hints of greatness come from something much higher than me, I call it God.

Please know I am not here to blog about religion, I am not religious. I am simply sharing with you this amazing wonderful metamorphosis I have experienced and the joy I have to be able to step into it TODAY. I dream of being a millionaire on the "Secret Millionaire" show. Until that day comes I will take cues from my mentors Oprah, Neale Donald Walsch, Rhonda Byrne, Robert & Kim Kiyosaki, God... and I will go out and make it happen. It started with making more donations and tonight/tomorrow night I start in deed.

If you are reading this right now, have connected with me at any of the social networks I use, thank you. I can't even begin to express how much I appreciate you. I really do carry you in my heart. This is my longest and my second most personal blog to date. I hope to continue to interest you. May you have a blessed and productive day. You are amazing.

Cheers to all of us, living out our dreams.

To the moon!! Financially speaking...

What day is it Tuesday? Gosh February 8th huh?? Here we go! I have been so excited to be working towards my new found goals that I have been focused in like a LASER! There has been a big shift in my world having to do with finances and the like. Since I have been so inspired, I wanted to share this info with you, that is of course, if you could stand to earn and keep more of your money.

Now there are many practical things I am up to in the world of business and money. I hope to open up a dialog that includes that information for those truly interested but you'd be surprised how so much starts with your state of mind. So I figure a very good place to begin is within...

My first highly recommended read:

While I make no guarantees of anything, I have personally read and I personally endorse this book as being what I think to be a great start on your path to financial success.

So let's go TO THE MOON! Financially speaking that is, who's with me?!

Let's Get Our Zen On!

If you're new to the blog, welcome. I have just had a big move and now live near the ocean for the first time and it's amazing. Every day, there's is something different to take from it and I figured, why not share the love??

No matter where you are, now you have a bit of the ocean with you whenever you want! So go ahead and get your zen on! There's no wrong way...

Sending you full expressions of health, wealth, and happiness. Ommmm..... ; )

My goodness, where'd September go?

Geez, I can't believe it's been over a month since I've blogged. Where'd the time go?! What have you been up to??? For me, it's been quite a whirlwind.

I've enjoyed intense heat & delicious rain. I captured rainbows and a sunset with my iPhone. I realized my dream of filming at Universal Studios. I've gained confidence in my Acting. I spent time and built memories with my girlfriends. I enjoyed time with my favorite girl in the world, Andrea. I got a new tattoo. I've faced some of my fears and allowed myself to be more vulnerable. I celebrated a birthday. I had a really great, cleansing cry. Mostly I've been letting go and letting God. I've also been learning a whole new way of being. Being busy but not busy. Investing my time in things I truly want, love, and are inspired by, and then letting myself be still, guilt free the rest of the time. I must say it's quite interesting.

I got hooked on the hustle. Sitting still, investing time and money, going for the long haul instead of the instant reward was hard at first. But it can be learned. So if you don't have this now, don't despair. I've been learning, living, and enjoying this concept and trust me when I say I'm not perfect but then again, who is right? Just last night into today I found myself struggling with a nervous energy. A restlessness of sorts and it affected my mood. I got grouchy. If it happens, it's ok. For the most part this new way of being has brought me a great happiness, focus, and quite a bit of success.

So, that's it. That's what's been up for me. Now what's been up with you???

Let's get out of here!! Continued.

Hello there!!!

If you read my previous blog you know I talked about getting out, exploring and the possibility of doing it no matter what your budget or time restrictions. So last week I went on an adventure and I'd like to share it with you like I promised.... Most of this will be in pictures. Away we go!!!!

The first destination was a 7 hour drive & that alone was so impressive. There were many beautiful sights but the craziest things were the weather variations.

Beautiful and strong. There was a torrential rain that had me slow to 30 mph on the freeway at points and there was a gorgeous lightning display. I wish I could've captured the lightning...

Then before you know it, our first destination! A small town called Williams were we had booked our hotel.

And some local BBQ for dinner. It was so cold out!! I was amazed knowing that while we were eating dinner and shivering (it was my fault I wanted to eat outside to enjoy the guitarist) it was hot enough for air conditioning just hours away at home.

I had already seen beautiful weather, amazing desert scenes, and a cute little town. But nothing could prepare me for.....

THE GRAND CANYON

This next picture shows the magnitude.. See the people?

The beauty of The Grand Canyon was overwhelming and humbling. I was scared at times but mostly completely in awe. I know my pictures can't capture it all, really it took a few days to comprehend. Still, I hope you're enjoying it. : )

Then as people made their way back.

The day drew to a close.....

Thank you Lord for the beauty you have made. Truly I felt blessed to have witnessed it.

A new day a new location! Here's some beauty we stumbled upon on our drive out....

Now on to Las Vegas! I'm stoked!!!

After days of fun in Sin City, we found another cool thing on our way home. A ghost town... : O

This 5 day trip for 3 filled with good food, brand new sights (except for Las Vegas), tons of fun and inspiration, not to mention memories that will last a lifetime, cost less than $1,000!! Can you believe it!?! I really hope you enjoyed the pictures please do share your adventures with me as well. I'd love to see what's going on with you.

*For those of you that appreciate photography/technology, these photos were captured with my iPhone 3GS and edited on my Macbook using iPhoto. ; )

That's it for now! Remember how fantastic you are and that anything is possible. Blog ya later! :D