GOD, where are you?

My walk with God began many years ago, as an adolescent I would walk myself to church and listen in on stories of God from religious people around me. I have been looking for the truth for a long time. Searching.... I have gone to Catholic church, Christian church, Baptist church, Seventh Day Adventist church, I have chanted to a scroll, taken a meeting with Jehovah Witnesses, and read various New Age books. I believe God is everywhere at all times inside of all of us and around in us in everything.I talk to God every day. Thanking and praying over situations and people and circumstances.

Still, it dawned on me that I have never read the word of God aka The Bible. I had tried it once but it seemed so hard and confusing I didn't go back to it. 3 times in my life so far I feel it has been brought to my attention. This last time I took the call.

I am going to try and read the Bible. Today in a few minutes I am going to honor my first Sabbath. I'd like to see what the ways of the Lord are. I'd like to be a bringer of the light. I'd like to show love and peace. I'd like to give honor to God by way of honoring myself and others the way I was intended. I'd like to learn.

I have doubted God, sinned every sin, and after meeting with a friend yesterday who is very well versed in the bible it turns out there are a number of things I have done and am doing wrong. I do good works, I consciously uplift others. I don't go to church regularly but I hold church inside of me daily. Am I saved? Am I condemned? Do I need to be forgiven? I guess I am about to find out. Since I made this decision I have felt the love of others around me, I have noticed butterflies all day, I have also happened to come upon Bible talk via random sources like other blogs and TV shows. To me, the message is clear. It's time and I am ready.

If you read this blog and have stories or thoughts to share on your experience of God or The Bible, I'd love to hear from you. Blessings to all...