Saturday, December 31, 2011

Pre New Years Eve...... 2011

Ah, the last day of 2011. People preparing for their plans, maybe last minute shopping for the perfect outfit. There are those maybe already starting the festivities, rounding friends up and making sure everything is coordinated. Then there's me and Tony. We did not make plans for New Year's Eve. There are a few things we could do, yet the indecision has paralyzed us. So now, the pressure sets in.

Why is there so much pressure surrounding this night? Will what we choose to do really call forth more or less magic than what is already meant for us? I feel like having a private New Year's Eve. Something in my heart is telling me that is the way to go and yet, it feels abnormal to choose that.

No matter what happens tonight, I know for a fact that 2012 is going to be an amazing year. Part of what I'm going through now is in preparation for that. I have laid some great groundwork for this moment (spiritually and financially) so spending hundreds of dollars to drink the night away with strangers just doesn't seem to fit right now. I know there are bigger and more important things. My heart goes out to anyone missing a loved one or anyone having health issues unable to "go through" deciding how to spend their New Year's Eve.

I still am not sure what I'm going to do tonight but I do know that if I don't stop typing and get on it, well the clock will just keep ticking :)  so I guess I'll do what I've always done and just get out there, trust my instinct, and let the magic find me. After all, there's no such thing as a wrong choice when following your heart. Right???

May you and yours be surrounded by love and your magic tonight and always. Fun time wishes! xo

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

The Magic of Christmas, 2011

This Christmas was absolutely amazing for me. I felt the magic all around me in the most unexpected ways... Coming out of childhood and straight into parenthood, I never strayed from the traditional ways of celebrating. You know, the lights, the decorations, the tree, the presents. These were things I have always loved, surely. This time though, none of those things were included in my experience. 

You see, my babies are no longer in my home. Faced with this, and my extended family's situation (Grandma's cancer has changed the certainty of gatherings at her house) I let my heart lead me and decided to feel Christmas and be Christmas without the outer showings we usually employ.

Christmas Eve I DJ'ed for a place called Hillsides. They are a kid's home that provides everything necessary for kids that do not have family. Being with them was an absolute joy. it was nice to bond with them and focus on giving them a good time. Afterward, I had planned to go to church which is something I had never done on Christmas Eve before. Amidst the beautiful decorations, the telling of the story of Christ's birth, the singing, and the candle lighting, I was touched to the core. On the way there, I had noticed a homeless set up near the freeway on ramp. Although I didn't see the people, I immediately was touched and felt the need to give. On the way back home I left some Christmas cookies I had been given at the Hillsides party along with 5 dollars and a prayer. The thought of them coming back to a small surprise made me happy and I hope it made them happy too. Once home, hubby and I got comfy. Watching Christmas movies we'd never seen before on Netflix and eating the Christmas turkey I had made earlier that day. We even fell asleep to a digital fireplace video! It was wonderful.

The next morning we arose to a pumpkin pie & coffee breakfast. What a treat! We then took off to Disneyland which was a first for both of us as we had never been at Christmas time, let alone on Christmas Day. There was much magic there, it took only 30 minutes to arrive which is about half of normal time. Upon arriving, we were told where to buy tickets where there was no line, we were gifted a fast pass to the 1st ride we were in line for by two lovely strangers at random, we were unexpectedly given a 10% discount on lunch, we even got to see the fireworks show from right in front of the castle! It was a grand day. 

My family was not left out of the equation. I spent time with my hubby's side earlier this month on the 16th at a gathering they planned. I sent every one of my family members cards and then texts on Christmas. I spoke with my daughter, and I reached out to my Dad which was big for me because I had had cut off communication with him a couple of year's ago after getting really hurt and angry at him.

Being Christmas this year, really being it in my heart has been the most profound experience. It has left me longing for Christmas to last. Now, I will look for ways to keep it going. 

How was your Christmas? What was your greatest gift? Your favorite new memory? I hope to hear from you...... xo

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Cancer side effects.

This year, my Grandmother and my Mother, were both diagnosed with cancer within a couple months of each other. Grandma, multiple myeloma. Mom, throat cancer. My brothers dog died of throat cancer. My other brother's ex girlfriend was diagnosed with breast cancer. Last week, my husband got diagnosed with a basal cell carcinoma which is the most common form of skin cancer (it will be treated with surgery in January.Thank God.) Sharing this news with a girlfriend on the phone, she told me her sister was diagnosed with a basal cell about two weeks ago. Cancer, cancer, cancer. It has left my head and world spinning.

All of this has had me thinking about HEALTH. LIFE. ENERGY. GROWING OLD GRACEFULLY. It has also had me asking about our medical system, the food we eat, and the products we buy.

These have been my side effects. These questions have started to drastically change my life.

Would you like to know about natural products? How about where to buy naturally healthy food? Are you interested in natural methods of staying healthy and healing? Do you already know about this and have things to share?

As I start to implement the things I have been learning about, I will begin to share them here with you. I do not ever post or recommend anything that I have not tried personally. If you are someone experienced in natural products, healthy living, etc. Please share. I am very interested in hearing from you.

Until then, cheers to healthy, energetic, lasting lives. May we all enjoy that. Every day.

I got three letters for ya, S E X

This morning I woke up incredibly aroused. It was the kind of feeling that occurs right before, or right after great sex. I don't remember exactly what I dreamt. All I know is I took a long time for me to leave my sleep and enter the world again, and when I did, the feeling was overwhelming.

As a married woman, sex should be no problem. It should be like water in the fridge. Available at any time and yet, that isn't always the case. This is when I thought of you, of us in general, and how we handle this stuff. I am sure we have all had moments when we were left wanting. Waiting for that release, touch, moment. Wishing for sex.

So what's the best way to go about this? The biggest problem for me is the moment it becomes cerebral. I'm a highly analytical Virgo. I think a lot about every thing. All day long. The moment I have to think about sex, I'm over it. I want to be taken away. Lead. Shown. Sex for me isn't in the brain. It's in the heart, it's in the feeel of it. It's not that I don't know what to do or how to do it. It's just that in my day to day life I call a lot of the shots. I designed it that way. Sex is one area, I'd like to relinquish control.

I think a lot of women are like me. A lot of us aren't thrown into orgasmic fits by just looking at something. A lot of us can and will rock the worlds of our partners but don't want to call the shots in bed. I mean, outside of a porn star or dominatrix, how many women have you known or spoken to that do?

Perhaps this is all too much. Too personal. I apologize in advance if it seems left field but Tee-riffic is about living our best life and the various paths taken in experiencing that. I'll be damned if sex is not part of it. I wondered, how many other women feel like me? How many men?

This morning, I tried to convey my aroused state to my hubby. I told him. He then seemed perplexed and more concerned at what I could've dreamt about. It was like an episode of "Up All Night." Real. Mundane. Comical. Slightly frustrating.

What could I have done differently? What is a way, we can convey what we like or want without running the whole session? Hurting our partners feelings? Or turning it into, GASP, a chat session?

In all fairness, I am sure there have been many times I have left my husband wanting. This is not about him being a problem. This is about starting a dialogue about what we like and what we want. So then we could start to get it.

Sexy dream or not.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Museum fun. L.A. Culture.

In my last L.A. Culture post, I told you about some great things you could do, and had expressed there were a couple more things I would write about once I'd visited them. Well here they are! During this holiday season, you may be concerned about spending extra money to go out or you may find yourself overwhelmed by the holiday to-do's. Hopefully neither of those is the case for you, but if so, you can rest assured that outings to these locations will not only be easy on your wallet but they will be easy on your time schedule as well.

The first is The Skirball Center:
What attracted my attention was their "Women hold Up Half The Sky" exhibit. I had passed by Skirball many times but finally had my first visit recently when this exhibit peaked my interest. I really loved the whole museum especially their method of creating the exhibits. So fun! I loved being taken away to the times and places depicted. For those interested and able, you can visit the entire museum for FREE on Thursdays. It's a lovely space perfect for all ages. There is also a cafe and gift shop along with a fabulous range of exhibits all made incredibly interesting by allowing you to interact with and / or enjoy the information with their signage, displays, and media. Here are a few pictures for you to enjoy:

My badge for the day! I love free access. :D

The second recommendation is The Getty Villa:
This spectacular museum is located in Malibu, which will provide a delight on the way there and back as you will be greeted by delicious views of the ocean. Admission is always FREE (you print out your timed entry ticket online & pay $15 for parking.) This space is filled with antiquities dating back as far as 200 BC. They have gorgeous grounds, dazzling statues, and media along with exhibits and interactive tours for you to enjoy. There is a cafe that serves organic foods, a coffee stand, and you can even order a glass of wine or beer if you'd like. My favorite thing was the ability to touch a gorgeous marble statue of Venus. I had never experienced anything like it. Imagine the feel of a human body made out of marble! She felt so real... Here are some pictures. I hope you like them!

Her body feels so real! 

I hope you have enjoyed these glimpses of the Skirball Center and Getty Villa. Tell me, are there any museums you like? Which are your favorite and why? If you find yourself going to either of these, I would love to hear what you thought. Thanks for reading, until the next time, BIG hugs.